9:43 AM - Can't Explain It
Good Morning,
I sit here in my home alone listening to a Kenny Chesney song. I'm calm.. calmest I've been in a long time. My life is good all considered. My needs are met with the exception of a job. I still think about the circumstances, but I can't undo them so I chalk it up to lesson learned. I have managed to make better connections with friends old and new since this has happened. I am going to be all right. God will lead me where I'm meant to go.
I have no regrets in the decisions I've made. They were the ones I was supposed to make. I live, I learn. I am learning the only things I need to be concerned with are the ones I can control. Worry doesn't accomplish anything (despite me doing it anyway- but not near as much). I am calm and accepting of what life has dealt me. I feel peace for once. It's a nice feeling.
Life has not been easy the last 4 years. But it's made me stronger. I've learned I can do things that I thought I never could. I've learned it's good to visit the past. Good or bad, you need to remember what got you to where you are now. Live one day at a time. Today is a gift. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come. Let God lead you and not the other way around. He knows what he's doing. We just have to be patient.
I sit here not feeling a thing but peace. Things aren't the way I'd like 100%, but that is okay. I'll live in this moment and enjoy it.
Peace,
Me
music: Demons