3:48 PM - It's Nearly Over
Well, negativity has tried to take me and hasn't yet. I'm working hard on moving on from this job. I can't wait. I feel I'm very qualified for a Secretary post at the VA which is 20 min from home vs. the 1hr and 5min commute I have now. The start pay is just as much as I make now. It would be busy, but I think I would welcome the change from social work. I love people contact, but the demands can be taxing at times. I've been trying to use affirmations to keep positive and that seems to help keep my morale up. Things are looking up for me. I've not felt this peaceful in years. I know this positive change will happen. I've made it a point to make sure everything is in place. I believe it will happen sooner than later. I've already applied for 6 posts in 1 wk. If I can keep that volume up, I figure that someone will give me a chance. I did already get shut down for 2, but I must admit applying for them was an act of desperation and I'm glad it happened. I've not let on a thing to my boss and I think it bugs her. But I'm going to keep my head down and work for the duration while I am here. That way no one suspects a thing. I realize now that I allowed certain people to emotionally defeat me. I'm capable. I'm smart. I have excellent people skills and I'm not afraid of learning something new. I love working with people and am not afraid to work. I know I have talents like everyone else despite how I've been made to feel. I'm an assett and not a liability. I'm not perfect, but I'm a decent human being with a good heart. I feel bad that I allowed negative people to nearly break me. But no more. I'm on the way to bigger and better things. Life is good. Walk by faith and not by sight as God does provide... and he will. I must go now. The day is ending. Have a good one!
Love,
Me