7:30 AM - Pissed off At the World
I find myself this morning pissed off. The reasons aren't clear yet, but a few possibilities come to mind. I'm not feeling tolerant today of people's behavior, their excuses, their attitudes, their shit.....I usually am a very tactful, respectful person.In the past, I've always had the tendency to just let things go, but I think I may have reached my tolerance level.Today is one of those days where if my buttons were pressed, I'd be tempted to say what's on my mind and it wouldn't be pretty.I've dealt with this kind of thing from everyone including my husband, my collegues, my clients and even some of my friends. I must have "doormat" or "sucker" on my forehead. I just wish people would quit treating me like I'm so foolish I won't figure out that that fake kindness with the condescending tone is them trying feebly to be a smartass. I imagine it will happen soon. I'll lay into someone. Who knows? Perhaps it will help me rid myself of this feeling of pissed-offedness. But part of me would love nothing more that to get "up close and personal" with those that have pissed me off. Maybe I am changing. Maybe the nice girl is running from the building as I speak. I can appreciate someone who is genuine and puts forth effort in this life. But I can't stand someone who thinks it's my obligation to take heat for their failure to be a grown-up. Now bull shit! Maybe I'm the one with problems...I dunno. But I know I'm outta time and will have to continue this later. Anyhoo, thankx for listening!